Monday, 20 April 2009
I WANT TO......
I'm not sure how I'm going to do this.
The yearning and longing inside to be somewhere else.
I want to start afresh.
I want new places to explore.
A room with a view that is not now
A river to walk by in the morning
The drive to the sea just a jaunt away
The ache inside is overwhelming
But I'm a good mummy, I promised, you see
To stay for longer when I want to be free
I fill my days with things to do to stop feeling
And when I reach that point in the day
The one between afternoon and night
I wander around with my thoughts
Not daring to let out the scream
That curdles my brain.
I don't know how long I can go on
Playing this game
Waiting for my life to change
And then of course that feels scary
Will I cope, will I be lonely
Yes and no I know are the answers
It's getting tougher to be ok
I want to ..... Oh I want to