Saturday, 5 July 2008
WHAT CAN I SAY.... IT'S FAB AND I CAN DO IT!
This morning if I could, I would have got off that sailing boat and gone home never to get in another dinghy as long as I lived. This was after being up between 3 and 4.30am worrying.
This afternoon I got it!
I got what sailing is about.
I sailed round the course with the instructor and my fellow student and I tacked and gybed. I looked where I was going, I stopped worrying about my feet, my hands, the ropes, the tiller and I just sailed. I almost capsized the boat and it didn't matter,cause everyone does it, it's just part of what happens.
I crewed holding onto the gib sheets (ropes) hanging off the side of the boat.
I smiled and smiled and felt wonderful. We sped across the lake, with the ever increasing wind, the spray in our faces, the sun shining.
And I could have cried with relief..... I can do it.
And I like it.
I am the world's most unsporty person. I was always the person left at the end of picking the teams at school. I could never get the hang of aerobics when all others were stretching this way and that, when going to the gym was de rigour.
And do you know I have cancer to thank for making me as fit as I am.
Since breast cancer I've got very good at pilates. It's given me my core strength. To the point that having a mastectomy makes no difference to my muscles or ability to have a full range of movement
I've learnt to walk distances and love it, after training and then doing a 10 mile charity walk last year. My body is toned, by butt is tight, my legs will walk anyone off their legs!
And now I can sail, so well that the instructor said he would be happy for me to sail alone. I'm not so sure yet, I need to practise more and build my confidence up. But I'll take his words and hold on to them. And know, that what I can do is, I can get into a racing dinghy and crew it with confidence. Cause that bit is the bit I like best.
There aren't many times I feel it's appropriate to boast about things I can do, but just for tonight I think it's okay. I've learnt to sail and I've completed my level 1 training. And I until this afternoon didn't think I could either do it, or enjoy it.
How amazing is that?