Thursday, 10 July 2008
CONTENTMENT THAT'S WHAT I'VE GOT
Happiness and dreams are odd things. A few years ago the way to achieve both was by having stuff and wanting stuff. My house is full of collections of this and that.
My wardrobes are full of clothes, shoes and handbags.
And I would have an ache to get something to add to the stuff I already had.
Nowadays I don't need or want anything. This doesn't mean I don't buy stuff, but it's more spur of the moment like the dress in the sale in Liverpool last week. Well it looked better than the clothes I'd been wearing!! And I was going to have lunch with the gorgeous and beautiful Wakeup! So I kept it on and got complements about how pretty it was!
What I mean is that age has allowed me to loose that desire to want a new acquisitions endlessly, and what makes me happy is being with friends.
So yesterday was a red letter day. I had lunch with the first mate of the day, we work together and it was lovely after we'd got all the work stuff out of the way to just catch up with each others news.
Then of to second mates,this is a woman I've known for many years but only recently become friends with. Whilst at her house her physiotherapist turned up to give her a treatment. And I curled up on her sofa and went to sleep. No one batted an eyelid. No-one was disturbed by my needing to sleep. It was just what needed to be. It was just acceptance. 15 minutes later I could cope with the rest of the day. I felt so comfortable that I could ask for my needs to be met, and knew enough that it would be fine.
And on to the third friend of the day, one of my close friends, we both work in the NHS and first got all our excitement out of the way regarding the reports that are coming out of the government about the need for a more holistic approach to health and the need for talking therapies.... YES! that'll keep me in work then! Lord Darzi you are our hero!
Then of to the pub for dinner,conversation and increasing trust in each other as we confided in one another.
I had this wonderful sociable day cause all three women live in a 5 mile radius of each other. And it seemed silly not to sort out meeting up with them in one fell swoop, as they are all an hours drive from me.
And what I know this morning is that, friendship and love are what keep me warm in way that no number of cashmere jumpers can! And that all I need /want nowadays is enough money to put petrol in my car so I can visit. Or enough money that I can afford an airfare.
Not for me the beach holiday, lying in the sun. Or the skiing holiday Or any other sort of holiday that didn't involve being with my friends.
To sit on my friends porch next week in Philadelphia and just be together is beyond price. And she does have the best porch in the world anyway!
And this summer I'm being braver than that cause I'm hiring a car and driving approx 6 hours to go stay with the very wonderful Sorrow. Who I have yet to meet in the flesh, but have spent many hours communicating with elsewhere.
If she turns out to be as wonderful as the other people I have met in real life through blogging then I am blessed. As the lovely people who I lunch with, walk with, party with, hang out with eating scones, are just simply utterly fantastic.And you know who you are.
So that's it, I am content. And life is uncomplicated right now, as there is no man that I'm spending my time hooked into, and right now that is beyond fine.
It is OK, being on my own doing what I want when I want to do it, without having a new handbag to do it!!!