I knew it would happen, which is why I did it. The minute I confronted myself with my apathy and procrastination I hoped something inside me would shift.
So this morning I woke up at 6am full of ideas of where to start.
I didn't immediately get up, too cold, too early, too dark! But I did lie in bed thinking through these thoughts. To the point that I now know where I go next.
For those people who have read some of my book this will make sense, and for those that haven't try, http://therapeuticfirebyrd.blogspot.com/as all my work is there for anyone to read or comment on. ( Sorry it is beyond me how to do links, if anyone wanted to tell me in, then....)
I've decided that there is no point in just writing chapter after chapter of me telling someone else what they need to do. There are a zillion books like that out there right now. Instead I'm going to make it personal. Cause it is my journey that has made me the person I am. My experiences that have got me to this point. So why not make it autobiographical with therapy.
As the thing that I have done is LEARNT TO MANAGE to overcome the stuff in life that drags me down ( most of the time anyway!!)
And I realised that the block I have been having recently is, because I was in the middle of learning a new lesson about myself. And until I came the other side of that then there was no way I could write it usefully for others.
Therefore I am going to be kind to myself and am going to give myself permission now to think, make notes and then write, without beating myself up.
And here I may as I always have done, put flavours or examples of the bigger thing I am writing.
However this morning before I can get to type my fingers off, survival is rather more important given the weather forecast, so I need bread and milk and possibly chocolate!
Thank you for your words of wisdom they are important to me, and I know that the other thing about being honest here is I can't now ignore what I propose to do or I'll have you to answer to you about it!!!
