Beautiful fungus on a very wet walk in Yarner Woods at the base of Dartmoor
Sometimes, although nature is wonderful and fills me with joy it doesn't always work in soothing my soul.
And today was one of those days. I needed to look at clothes,get a coffee, speak to people, get dressed up and put makeup on. And not just cause it was a work day.
So short T shirt dress, black leggings and wedge heel shoes, full make up, hair sorted, roof down in the car and I was ready to rock and roll.
Off I went to my favourite shop in the world, a very large M&S near Manchester. First stop coffee shop, and sat outside in the sunshine drinking a mocha and eating a scone and butter, whilst I worked out why I was there.
I realised that at the moment, a lot of my friends and family are leaning on me heavily. And although I am always more than happy to be there for people I care about, it does drain me. There is almost a finite number of troubles I can listen to without doing something for myself. But at the moment there is a lot of worry and pain about. I would never not be there for people around me, so to deal with that inside myself I have to reward me.
There is no-one around me who'll tell me what a good girl I'm being, or give me a strong hug and look after me. Now I am fine with that, my ratio is 80% - 20% of being happy alone. But I know for to to maintain this balance that I must look after me.
Of course the rewards come in many lovely ways, most of which don't cost more than a tank of petrol when I go and see friends, or go dancing or walking. But there other times when I know that I'm exhausting my reservoir and therefore need a little extra.
So once I understood what I was doing at that wonderful shop I went with a clear mind and bought a winter coat in soft pink wool and cashmere. And boy do I feel happy now!
Of course for days here in England the weather has been foul, unseasonally cold and wet. But today the weather has been astounding, clear blue skies and warm sunshine and it is a completely mad to day to buy a coat.
I will not wish the sunshine away, I'll just hang this lovely coat up in the wardrobe and look forward to that chill happening that I can sashy down the street feeling good sometime soon!