Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Love and gratitude
I've just written a post all about how privileged I feel and why. The reasons are all to do with being loved. Then I realised that it's a post I've written more than once in the last three and a half years, so I got rid of it.
I don't want to repeat myself or rehash old posts but I did want to make a point about how I feel.
I have never seen it as my automatic right to be loved. It is not something I ever want to take for granted. I spent so many years of my early life not having friends.
I learnt to not show how much it mattered being without them.
So now years later I am constantly amazed when people want not only be my friend, but then stay friends with me.
I have always nurtured my friendships. I contact people and ask them if they want to do something with me, whether that's put up with me visiting, or going out for a simple walk. When I was younger and did this, I always used to feel people were just putting up with me. Now I know differently. We all lead such busy lives, no more so than at this time of year. And keeping up with people is not always easy with our day to day commitments. But I know now that people are pleased that I make the effort to contact them and say,lets get together, however that will be done.
Someone asked me recently whether we would be friends for life. And I would like to think that anyone who is my friend is there for life. The world is a tough and lonely place, we need each other. Even if we don't get round to speaking to each other every week. That bit doesn't matter. What matters is that when we have time that we do contact each other and share our thoughts and care of each other.
Blogging feels a bit like that circular, which I'm sure you've all seen. You know the one, that talks about some people only being in our lives for a moment, others for a while longer and some for ever. Many people have passed by here in their blog journeys, a few have stayed the course and are real friends now and I think will always be so. Others have drifted off or I have drifted away from them, as our paths changed and are need for that person was not so intense. I regret the drift away, but at the same time I know I cannot be friends with everyone all of the time.
I suppose in writing this I just want to pay tribute to all of you wonderful bloggy friends, whether you are there for the duration or just passing through. I am grateful that you have stopped by because you make a difference in my life.
And at this wonderful and difficult time of year I just want you to know that I wish for you good things, peace and contentment.