Friday, 16 July 2010
Please, please, please understand this is not to do with the number of comments I get.I got into a place of feeling sorry for myself and knew that I couldn'tkeep doing this to myself as it's counter productive to wellbeing!
This is to do with the feelings inside me related to my childhood on the one hand and on the other my loneliness as a human being. And however hard I try and overcome it sometimes I just get jealous of other people.
I know that is not a nice quality but it is one I have now and then. I know it is not logical but emotions aren't.
I have wonderful friends both in real life and here. What I don't have is a local network where I live.I only have a lovely couple I see once a week for walks
I spend too long here, and one of the reasons that has been because I've been trying to leave here and move closer to some of my friends. I have put no effort into living here in the last couple of years for various reasons.
However now I've had to take my house off the market due to complete lack of viewers. So I have to make the decision to be part of where I live in the immediate future. And this is difficult because I don't much like here.
So I'm working on being grateful for what I do have, lovely house, good job, and all the the things that are good about here.
And I know that with my using blogger as my social network I won't improve the living conditions. So yesterday when I had a bout of feeling sorry for myself I made the decision it's time to move back into the real world. And to spend the next few weeks trying to find that locally.
That said because I love my blog so much, I think it's pretty, I have decided to keep it as a photo blog of my pictures. So that I can keep firebyrd going and be part of beautiful world.But first my holiday.
If I decide I want a place to write I will start another blog in due course.