Wednesday, 25 November 2009
Those days when........
Do you ever just have those days when you've got loads to do, fiddly things like writing to the bank, sorting out internet accounts, phoning for appointments, sorting out the broken computer, and plumbing in the new broadband into it. So many that you have to write a list, and there is a sense of satisfaction as each one is ticked off.
And you get to do things that weren't even on the list like make food, not only for son's breakfast at 4pm, he's working nights, but also his sandwiches for his break times during the night.
The added bonus comes along, of needing to take the dog to the vets, something I've been putting off for days, as it is so difficult.
But I managed it, as I did all the other tasks today.
I should feel satisfied and content in exactly how much I've achieved today. All of the awkward tasks, the ones I haven't wanted to do and I've been stockpiling them.I've even organised the next two days in doing pleasurable tasks as a reward for being so good.
So why do I feel so sad, why for two pins could I sit here and cry. And now am!
Don't suppose it's anything to do with youngest son being cross with me, before he went to work.
Or eldest son being too tired to talk to me.
Or even the fact that my Mum has been dead 23 years yesterday.
And the dog is no use,cause the tranquiliser I had to give her has kicked in.
And me having no-one to tell right now, except you.
No couldn't be any of those things I'm sure.....
I'd really like someone to say, you are a good girl, you have worked hard doing all those difficult jobs. Fancy being that clever to sort out the computer,phone the hospital for a mammogram,sort it all out and do the ironing.
I'd really like someone to give me a hug, and hold me tight.
But right now there's no-one, so I'll just gave to get on with it, and maybe just go and get my toy cat to give me a hug instead.