Wednesday, 25 November 2009

Those days when........


Do you ever just have those days when you've got loads to do, fiddly things like writing to the bank, sorting out internet accounts, phoning for appointments, sorting out the broken computer, and plumbing in the new broadband into it. So many that you have to write a list, and there is a sense of satisfaction as each one is ticked off.
And you get to do things that weren't even on the list like make food, not only for son's breakfast at 4pm, he's working nights, but also his sandwiches for his break times during the night.
The added bonus comes along, of needing to take the dog to the vets, something I've been putting off for days, as it is so difficult.
But I managed it, as I did all the other tasks today.
I should feel satisfied and content in exactly how much I've achieved today. All of the awkward tasks, the ones I haven't wanted to do and I've been stockpiling them.I've even organised the next two days in doing pleasurable tasks as a reward for being so good.

So why do I feel so sad, why for two pins could I sit here and cry. And now am!
Don't suppose it's anything to do with youngest son being cross with me, before he went to work.
Or eldest son being too tired to talk to me.
Or even the fact that my Mum has been dead 23 years yesterday.
And the dog is no use,cause the tranquiliser I had to give her has kicked in.
And me having no-one to tell right now, except you.
No couldn't be any of those things I'm sure.....

I'd really like someone to say, you are a good girl, you have worked hard doing all those difficult jobs. Fancy being that clever to sort out the computer,phone the hospital for a mammogram,sort it all out and do the ironing.

I'd really like someone to give me a hug, and hold me tight.

But right now there's no-one, so I'll just gave to get on with it, and maybe just go and get my toy cat to give me a hug instead.

19 comments:

tattytiara said...

That's what we're here for. To let you know that yes, we see the accomplishments of daily living and to remind you that yes yes yes, there are always people in this world who think you're awesome, even if we can't all fit in the same room with you at one time.

Well, we can when we're in this little electronic box, though!

Pam said...

Byrdie!!Hug, hug!Truly, I always think of you from the other side of the world.Can you hear those big cheers winging their way from Down Under?xxxxx

Helen said...

Well, of course this begs for the biggest, most heartfelt hug ever! Can you feel all of those collective arms around you? All those voices telling you what a clever person you are?

Be secure in the knowledge that it's happening ................

trousers said...

You need a hug: there's a queue forming already, I'll join it :)

x

lakeviewer said...

My dear, you've been absolutely fabolous, doing all those tasks, putting up with teen-young-him-concerned only for him self. You are there for everyone else, time after time. And, and, you need to be there with a cheery disposition too. Right?

Well, right yourself a note,one that lists all the things you'd like to have someone say to you, and then, pick up the phone, and order flowers with that note.

If I were writing that note, this is what I'd say:

"For Byrd, the cleverest, most nurturing human being around. Love, from across the ocean and a couple of continents."

Salacious Soul said...

Cats give better hugs ;)

Mel said...

All that AND you had to schedule a mammogram....

(((((((((( the byrdie ))))))))))))

<- just another part of the collective thinking you're a clever one, a 'good' one, a very very loved one.

((((((((( the byrdie ))))))))

Sorrow said...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUG THE BYRD))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Merry ME said...

Add ME to the group hug.

CheekyDani said...

Hugs from me also. The things you've been through lately, plus the things you had to deal with today, hugs are much deserved. Thinking of you x

Grammy said...

Oh. My arms are so open I would give you a hug and we would go out and spend a lovely day together. I wish we were neighbors. As I have felt the loneliness too.

Zan said...

*Joining in the que for hugs.*

xx

HHHHUUUGGGSSS

Linda - Gold Coast said...

Hi Mandy more big {{{{hugs}}}} being sent from downunder. Keeping smiling gorgeous Lady. ♥Linda xoxo

Indigo said...

Include me in that hug! I live in England so maybe I'm closer to you than you think... can you feel my arms around ya?

Indigo said...

I have to have an emergency mammogram on Thursday.......

speck of dust said...

Idea of a group hug makes me feel nauseous so I'll let you all get on with that. And all I can say is all I've learned is the only person who can make me feel validate and can congratulate myself is myself and the more I don't need it from anyone else the happier I am. To just be neutral; not relying on love and praise and not reacting to criticism and rejection, that's peace for me and something I work on more than anything else. x x

karen said...

I am most impressed by your list of ticked-off items, you must be feeling very virtuous, and see from all your blog friends, you are also much loved! :)

Mel said...

((((((((( Indigo )))))))))

*sending prayers and peacefilled thoughts*

Lori ann said...

am i too late for the group hug? yes! to what all your friends have said here Mandy, you are a wonderful friend and you deserve so many, everything, good to come your way. be gentle with yourself dear, you are a very special person.