Saturday, 18 October 2008
STOP PREVARICATING BYRD, AND GET ON WITH IT!!
Yesterday I went to a conference, it was the annual conference of the professional organisation that I belong to.It was as inspirational as last years for me.
After I'd been to last years I started writing my book, and yesterday's energy boost has made me realise that I need to start writing again. It's no good prevaricating and putting it off, which I'm so good at doing. Recently I've cleaned my cooker and tidied my drawers rather than write. Not that they didn't need doing it! But it has been about being bone idle in sitting down and working.
Which is silly cause I know the sense of satisfaction I got from putting my knowledge on paper was profound. And I also know that it is selfish holding on to my knowledge.
People get so lost, for whatever reason and I know that the stuff that I do works. So in not writing out this damn book I'm almost denying people a resource that they could use.
I know that I need to write out everything first in my own quirky fashion, and only when I have done that can I then start to rewrite it before actually considering whether or not it's good enough to send to a publisher.
But that is part of the problem of writing it out, there are so many words in my head, I don't know where to start again. Depression/ anger/ eating disorders they are all jostling for space to be written along with a whole pile of techniques that can be used to help change someones perspective.
I need someone to sit me down and say I want answers about x subject then I can get on and write that one out.
One of the wondrous things about the conference for me, was actually realising that nowadays I know what the great and good are on about, things such as attachment theory, transference, separation anxiety. Things that when I was taught them millions of years ago made no sense to me at all. And that now I can make sense of to other people who are not therapists. I can take all the psychobabble and make the words understandable in every day language. And having that skill means I should get on with it.
The conference was exhausting and J, my friend from Devon, who is another therapist, went to it as well and then stayed with me last night. So this morning we went walking at the lake at the bottom of the road. So I thought I'd just show off the day as it was utterly stunning walking this morning. And made the world feel a very good place to be alive in.
So wish me luck, if that's what I need, or maybe it's determined attitude in the morning, to get to this machine and not waste time playing, but putting some work down. And in telling you I'll lose face if you ask me why I haven't done it later!!!
NOTE... I've written the first chapter 3000 plus, which is not bad considering there are sevon others all ready written!! I've put it up on my other blog if anyone wants to read it.I've also just discovered a lost chapter, couldn't figure out where one had gone and just found it on my memory stick.... ooooh am I feeling smug now!