Wednesday, 14 November 2012
Seven years and life is just so good
But I shouldn't have worried, cause what I felt was victory of having got here. So much has gone on in the last seven years, some far more traumatic and frightening then I would ever want to deal with again. And some pleasurable,exciting and challenging.
I've had cancer, had a mastectomy, learnt to love my body as it looks without a breast (still hate the middle age spread though!!!!) Learnt to have a full range of movement in my arm. Learnt to vacum. and iron with my left hand. To carry my handbag/purse on my left shoulder. Took drugs for five of those years, that have put 14lbs of weight on me. Learnt to walk miles and enjoy it. Learnt how to dance salsa and rock' n'roll and love it.
I've had a blog for five of those seven years and have written in excess of 180,000 words (Gawd, I have so much to say for myself!!!) I've written 15 chapters of a self help book, five chapters of a novel, run a photography blog for a year, that produced work from around the world. I've more or less run out of things to say ( no comments needed here, thank you!!)
I've been sad, lonely frightened,
I've been loved, cherished and cared for
I've had two relationships since cancer and sex with three men.
I've been out of a relationship (and sex!) for four years now.
I've gone through absolute hell with my youngest son.
I've seen the same son grow up and become a man.
I have two wonderful sons, who both have strong relationships with their girlfriends, successful jobs and are an absolute pleasure to know.
I have kept my best girlfirends throughout.Gained and lost others some along the way.
I have kept my job as a psychotherapist and grown in confidence in my knowledge of human nature.
I have become the chair of governors for three schools, a position I work really hard with to get the best education possible for the children in the town I live in.
I have worked really hard to get my damaged and aggressive rescue dog trained to now be safe with people in my home..... Walking is still work in progress!
I live alone with the same dog and I love it
I am HAPPY, CONTENT, SUCCESSFUL,TALENTED,INTELLIGENT, PHYSICALLY FIT, AND HAVE GOT HERE!!!!! And as my beloved mate in Cornwall said on facebook, I don't look too bad for my age!
And of course all this has come about as a result of life's journey. Which no matter what has happened so far has been dealt with to the best of my ability, and lessons have been learnt from. Who knows where the next seven will go, but frankly my dear, what will be will be. And as long as I keep living in the moment the adventure will take care of itself. So I can have one or two ambitions, but more importantly, just knowing what's in my diary in the next few weeks is more than enough to live my life with.
Cause as one of my favourite quotes goes........ Whilst we are remembering yesterday and dreaming about tomorrow, life is happening right now. And I like living with that.