Friday, 4 December 2009

one foot in front of another


I can't allow myself to think.
I can't allow myself to feel
I can't allow myself to write
I can only talk about one thing
I can only just hold my fear at bay
I can only hope to God that it will be okay
I have to stay neutral about what will be
I have to continue to be strong
I have to
I just have to ....
there is no choice....
one foot in front of another
I've done it before
and no doubt I'll do it again.

15 comments:

nitebyrd said...

Hold steady, girl. Regardless, this too shall pass. (((HUGS))) and some good, strong, thoughts being sent.

trousers said...

No doubt indeed - and hold on to that.

A day soon is crunch day for the both of us, albeit for very different reasons. I'll be thinking of you, and if there's anything I can do...

Pam said...

Remember this is the worst part.This bit really is quite beyond your control.Firm and steady does it Byrd.Think of a firming hand on your shoulder...the collective power of our well wishes.Yes, this too will pass, as the first comment noted, and then it's the next action plan. You're good at them.Love to you and Alex xxx

lakeviewer said...

My, something is frightening you. Steady, now. You can work this out.

tattytiara said...

Everything is a choice, and you've made the brave one to be strong. Give yourself credit for your courage, my friend.

Angela said...

There is a wonderful Proverb in the Bible. It says "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding..."
It always lifts the weight off my shoulders. It is not up to me to decide on all things, or to know what is good. Let it be...

Innocent said...

Did you give me rasins then?

Zan said...

Many hugs coming your way.

xx

Mel said...

(((((( the byrdie )))))))

Steady....one foot in front of the other. Even if it's by inches and seconds, keep moving.

Thinkin' about you.
Wondering, worrying....it matters--you matter.

(((((((( the byrdie )))))))))

Helen said...

I am so impressed with your ability to give eloquent voice to your fear and panic ... I've done this too and I know it helps. Years later I still give thanks that we came through it ~ and the words still have tremendous meaning.

Thinking of you ...........

janis said...

Hugs & Prayers from me in Indy!

Linda - Gold Coast said...

Hoping and praying all goes well Mandy♥

kj said...

gee, i don't know what to say because i don't know what's going on for you. i can't say hold steady because maybe you should let go. i can't say this is the worse part because maybe in the end you will gain more than you thought possible\

i can only say be who you are and believe in that.

love
kj

Sorrow said...

There are so many candles that i light
so many whispers to the universe i say.
Hold on
hold on to yourself.
The greatest gifts you once told me came to you from your darkest hours.
I love you.

Lyn said...

Mandy, I can feel your naked fear,as well as strength and determination in your words. I have no words to offer except I will send you positive energy from the deepest part of my being. Love and hugs ...